Don’t say: “F*!K or Bug*er”!

Today was another lymphocyte infusion day, made possible by Jane’s extra cell donation last week, and because it’s now just a routine procedure we set off in good time without a care in the world. The traffic was really quiet for once, so we arrived in Southampton full of laughs and confidence.

Little did we know that was going to be short lived!

We checked in and, with time in hand, got a coffee from Costa and poked our heads into C6, the ward where I had my transplant a year ago this Friday. This was my first visit since I was ‘released’, and I felt really quite strange and uncertain about it. Sadly, other than Darren (who I love seeing as he was so fab), there was no-one I recognised so we went back to the day ward C7.

After half an hour’s delay Joan was ready for me, and in we went. I immediately sensed something wasn’t quite right as Debbie, one of my consultants, was also there. They wanted to have a good look at my skin as the next phase of the lymphocytes are much larger doses which can trigger GVHD if they don’t tread carefully. So… next came the bad news. Since my last infusion the sun has triggered a bit of GVHD on my arms, my chest, my back, stomach and legs – and they are worried that increasing the dose in one big wallop could cause a worse reaction.

As you can imagine, I was gutted by the news, especially as I have been doing so well and have had no setbacks so far!!

So now I am not allowed to drink again for two weeks, with the exception of a couple on my birthday, I am not allowed in the sun for two weeks, I am not allowed in the pool for two weeks, and I have to keep myself liberally smothered in a steroid cream called Betnovate, then head to toe in suntan lotion on top just in case I go outside to the shops or whatever! After these two weeks, I have to go back for another inspection and lymphocyte top up on the 19th.

In the meantime, everything else looks good for now and I have to keep reminding myself that the things they want me to do is for my own good – no matter how miserable. They don’t want me back in hospital to be treated for GVHD of the skin, gut, liver, mouth etc, etc – anymore than I do, and they want to make sure they have me in a safe and stable condition before our holiday in September. But I have to say – I did feel like I was in the headmistress’s office… all the laughing and joking soon stopped!

I can’t believe it… after everything I have had to put up with!!! Anyway, after a bit of a moan and a grumble, and having had my bloods taken again to make sure there is nothing else sinister going on, we set off to the pharmacy to order more Betnovate, and followed that with a detour into Chichester to a lovely little restaurant called Woodies where we stuffed our faces. 🙂

So… Where I Am At!

On the 30th July it will be a whole year since I was admitted to Southampton for my bone marrow transplant, and all is good!

I know from my private messages, and friends, that people are watching my journey, and as I haven’t blogged for a while I thought it was time for an update… so here goes!

I now have 100% Jane’s bone marrow and blood group, but I only have 78% of her immune system, which is not where the consultants at Southampton want me to be. They need me to be 100% as a precaution really – because my own immune system couldn’t deal with leukemic cells, which got me into this mess in the first place! Anyway, that is the reason I have been having lymphocyte infusions, which are little top ups of Jane’s cells.

However…this little technicality was the reason for what happened yesterday, because I have now had all the cells that were frozen from the original collection, but I still need more lymphocyte cells! So Jane was asked to donate again, and thankfully agreed!!

She had had another medical last month and was good to go, but since then she had been to Turkey for 2 weeks, hence the tan, so I was desperately hoping she hadn’t picked up anything. She and David, her loyal and supportive husband, stayed at a Southampton hotel on Wednesday night as she was booked for the cell collection early on Thursday morning, and when I spoke to them it sounded like they were having another holiday. Unbeknown to them though, Countryside (my employer) had agreed to give me a couple of days off so that I could be there to support my sister just like she did with me last year – and I was desperate for it to be a surprise. It was so hard speaking to her at the hotel and not letting the cat out of the bag!

They got to the hospital at 8am, then to their surprise I rocked up at 9!! It was great to be there with her. Until then I wasn’t even aware that she had hurt her back and was in great pain – but she still managed to soldier on. She had checked with the hospital first and they had offered to postpone, but she said ‘No’, for which I am really grateful as I am booked in for the next top up on the 4th August and it has all been arranged!

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Anyway, I arrived just before she went to theatre to have the lines put in. They took her up in a bed due to her back, and I felt myself welling up as it brought back all sorts of memories from last year. Once they brought her back I took a few pics and a little video of the cell collection machine at work – which also shows my lovely supportive brother-in-law looking completely ‘not bothered’ that his wife is hooked up to a big spin dryer!

But I have to say…my sister… Jane Cochrane, the most kind, uncomplaining, selfless person I know. I count her as one of my best friends as well as my sister – and I know that if we weren’t sisters I would still want her as a friend!

Love her!

By he way – I have put myself forward as a ‘voice’ for Leukaemia Care, so you could be hearing a lot more from me 😉 xx

The best news all year!!!!!!

For Andrew: The results are in, I am much better now thank you!

For everyone else… The results of the tests from the past few weeks are in, and I am disease free!!! No leukemic cells!!!!

I now have 90% Jane’s bone marrow and 30% of my immune system back. 90% is great for this stage but they are going to give me a top up of Jane’s lymphocyte cells on 9th December, just to get me a leg up to 100% HER, and this should help prevent the chances of it happening again!! The 30% immune system is all ‘memory’ which means I should now be safe from the illnesses and infections I have had before, although I still have to be careful.

So in answer to everyone’s question ‘has the chemo and transplant worked?’ YES IT HAS and I have my life back, THANKS Jane!!! And to all of you, supporting me and encouraging me on, I can’t tell you what it has meant!!! As what I have been through, I wouldn’t wish on anyone!! Whilst I am doing my Thank You Speech I would also like to thank Zig, as he has been to all of my appointments with me and held my hand every step of the way! I think, at times it has been harder for him! Thanks bebe!!!

I did manage to ask the question ‘will I be able to have a glass of red at Christmas? And the answer… POSSIBLY!!!!! I am taking that as a defo YES, The Kings Arms, Billi, here I come, Christmas Day!!!!!

I’m still not allowed out for lunch for dinner, but I can have fish and chips from the chippy!! I am definitely ‘on the up’! xx